Work vs Study August 3, 2009

I feel very confused here. On one hand, after spending two full months working full time, I absolutely cannot wait to go back to being a student. There are the simple pleasures like sleeping in, skipping classes, and practically bumming around with people I actually like.

But deep inside, I know that when uni starts, I will yearn for the working life, where I don’t need to study, where I learn things everyday purely on experience. It’s this shitty feeling of being human; you want something else when you have something entirely different. You don’t appreciate what you have till it’s gone. You yearn, want, and crave for something, but yet when you get it, you toss it aside and look for something else to obsess over.

I may be bitching a lot about my internship, but it’s actually not that bad. I do learn a lot of things, and I’m not sucking up.

Currently I have the urge and drive to study super hard and score super well for my upcoming semesters. Sucks that this drive will suddenly disappear when I need it most. You know how the elders always say Kampar is a good place to study cause there’s lesser temptation than in the city? They may be right about that; but the overly laid back life of this rural area is making us feel laid back.

What keeps me going? Competition. Why yes, I’m pretty kiasu, if you haven’t noticed. I don’t like people doing better than me. I get upset. I get irritated. But most importantly I get the drive to work harder. (Not like it’s working very well but SHUSH I’m getting there.)

Today, a new intern came into Cleo. Naturally, my hackles rose. I will no longer be asked to do all the work. (Which is good news, but I don’t want all the writing work to go to the newbie. Let her do the meagre things haha.) Also my sense of competitiveness showed itself. It’s good I guess. At least now I’ll show the ‘enthusiasm’ that I supposedly lack.

On a happier note, I’m finally getting my camera tomorrow! It’s actually been around a few weeks, but it was in Kampar, then Davin forgot to bring it back two weeks ago, so Kar May brought it back last week and Calvin will be passing it to me tomorrow. Complicated, I know. It’s because my parents don’t know I bought the camera. :D

I’ll post some pictures up tomorrow if I remember. Hurray for this being a not-so-work-related post!

It’s 2.26pm… June 30, 2009

…and I have nothing to do at the office. I wanted to blog about something inspirational, something thought-provoking, something emotional. But this page has been open for the past two hours and I still haven’t thought of anything of the sort to write and all I can think about things I want to buy (I know, so bimbotic) so that’s exactly what I will do! Fyi, these things are too short-term to be added into the wishlist.

1. BB cream! Omg, I want a BB cream so much because I am so sick of going to office without makeup and my face getting oily within an hour. However, BB creams are also quite expensive (imho), so the cheapest I found was Elianto’s most basic one, at RM49.90. Now I just have to work out the courage to buy it. Haha.

2. Mascara. I have mascaras. I have free mascaras. I have free mascaras from over 4 years ago, hence it’s already dried up and I didn’t realize the wonders of an actual working one until recently. Yeah, I’m a makeup noob like that. I am currently eyeing Majolica Majorca’s Lash Gorgeous Wings which is similar to the Fiberwig Mascara but RM20 cheaper! It’s only RM39.90. I will get it…soon…

3. Gel eyeliner. This is probably the most genius product ever created. Gel eyeliner! Haha! Perfect for oily skinned people like me whose pencil eyeliner smudges within two hours. However, I’ve recently taken to using liquid liner (which I had since…last year but never used cause I couldn’t master it) and it doesn’t smudge. I somehow had the sudden ability to use liquid liner. Working in Cleo has made me a pro.

4. Flat sandals. I only have two pairs of flatties. And they’re ballet flats. I want something open, to let some air in. Also, these ‘open’ sandals will be easier to match clothes with, as my ballet flats have designs on them and thus won’t go well with most clothes like patterned skirts, dresses and such. Why do I need flats when everyone here are wearing at least four inches? I have to go sourcing and return loaned items a lot, and that includes walking from one end of the shopping mall to the other. Seriously, my legs should be so toned now, but I seem to be getting fatter. Argh!

5. Black and white tank tops. Where can I buy plain tank tops for below RM20 each? I want a white and a black one; they’d be so easy to match clothes with.

6. Sunglasses. Preferably aviators. I can’t believe how all these old fashioned things are making a comeback. The worse thing is that I actually like them! I guess I could settle for Vincci sunglasses…(I actually want Ray Bans but they’re so expensive haha).

7. I guess I need a new watch as well? I’ve been wearing my black Esprit since I was in form 1 almost everyday. The thing is, I can’t seem to find any other watch I’d like more. The same goes with my wallet. Haha. My smelly old torn blue Radioactive wallet has been with me since form 1 too. I seriously need a new one. But I can’t find one that I like!

I have nothing to do that I actually resorted to updating Shopping Critique. I haven’t been updating for aeons, and readership has seriusly dropped, but I don’t know why the followers are slowly but surely increasing! Yay. Am I popular? *insert anime laugh*

Alright, to increase my popularity I shall go update again.

P.S. I might have to work this weekend. :( But I will definitely not sacrifice my Saturday, no way! SU Canteen Day and Awesome Possum Bazaar, here I come!

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Year 2 Semester 1 – done May 14, 2009

I cannot believe that I’ve finally gotten through this semester. Undeniably, this was the toughest semester I’ve been through, but I know that the third year will be even tougher. This semester was a very memorable one. Davin came to live in Kampar, I participated in one of the biggest events in Kampar’s UTAR, I had my first group assignment conflict, I fell sick so many times, and I think I lost count of how frustrated I was this semester. 

But amazingly, this semester flew by really fast. I know that as you grow up, your live goes by faster, but this was crazy fast. Too fast, in fact. Fourteen weeks just flew by like that. The first week was nothing; the second week, we were already pressured by our internships. Third week was a holiday. Then came the overflow of assignments, only two midterms, assignments, and then straight on to finals. I can’t believe that we had assignments up till week fourteen! 

Then, there was the musical. So much time was spent perfecting it. I didn’t have a big part in making the musical a perfection; my role was only to make sure the tickets were selling, and keep track of it. Even then, the ones who made them really sell was the major people in the musical. So really, my part was really small. But it was fun doing it. :D I’m glad it turned out well. 

Now that I’m on holiday, life feels a little more mundane. It’s so contradicting, when I’m in Kampar, I can’t wait to get back home. When I’m here, I feel like being in Kampar again.

Surprisingly, I haven’t been to a single drinking party this semester. Kind of sad. 

I won’t be in Kampar this year till October. I’m having my internship for my next semester, and I’ll be interning for Cleo! Well, most probably anyway. I’ll miss the late nights out. Going upstairs to scare Apple. Stealing Kar May’s chocolate biscuits. Seeing her face when the cat comes into our house. Sleeping in. Most of all, I’m going to miss Davin. Although I said four months isn’t very long, and it’s just going to fly by when I get so busy interning, right now during my two week break I feel like I’m going to miss him a lot. 

I’ll miss doing my assignments in his room. I seem to concentrate better and get more done cause he’ll always come by every once in awhile to nag at me if I’m doing something other than my assignment. I’ll miss the belly rubs. I’ll miss watching movies on my laptop with him. I’ll miss eating out with him. Sigh. 

Four months should be very quick considering the half year I had last year waiting for him to come to Kampar, right? Just fourteen weeks. Fourteen weeks. 

I just watched Gossip Girl episode 24 just now. A bit miffed that they didn’t show Georgina’s fantastic plan ( I mean, look at the ending of episode 23!!), but was really touched at  Chuck’s gesture. At first I thought I downloaded the wrong show, cause I didn’t know who that ‘young Lily’ was. I can’t wait for the next one to come out! 

Genting trip in the next post. :)

What’s new? April 22, 2009

1. So I had a haircut. Now I have supershort hair. In fact, I think this is the shortest I’ve gone…though it’s not that short if you compare it to boy cuts or whatsoever. I actually wanted a boy cut but then I saw a style in the magazine that I liked even better, so yeah. So this one looks more feminine than what I actually intended. Perhaps when my hair grows out, I’ll try a more androgynous look. But then, the Justin doesn’t believe I had a haircut until I show evidence. -_- My camera is dead, so no pictures! Haih. I have my eye on a Canon Powershot G10 but I don’t feel like paying RM2k for it. Why lah so expensive. :(

 

2. And I had braces. I went for a haircut a few hours after I put on my braces, hehe. I’m taking this whole “new look” thing seriously. Haih so what’s new. I’m like five years too late to put on my braces, I talk funny now and I drool when I sleep. Eating is also seriously a bitch now because I can’t close my mouth nicely due to the brackets on my molars, therefore I can’t chew properly with any of my teeth save for the front teeth. I don’t know if it’s too early or what, but when I bite down, it hurts. Real bad. Otherwise, when I’m not doing anything to my mouth, it’s not that bad. It does seem like saliva comes out excessively now.

 

3. And because I have to be on a “soft diet” now (whatever that means. psh) I am only limited to eating mash potatoes, and plain porridge. The morning after I had my braces on, I ate bread dipped in Milo for breakfast. I couldn’t even chew bread. -_- Today (day 3) for lunch, I ate this pie which has mash potatoes (for its pastry. Yum!), chicken cubes, mushroom, peas and carrots. It hurt so bad to chew the filling, I ended up sucking mash potatoes out of them chickens and peas and I had to dump them away. Haih so sad.

 

4. Then I decided to cook porridge for dinner, since there’s nothing else I can eat anyway. Made my favourite porridge with carrots, potatoes, tomatoes, and onions! I think the carrot was a bit young; it was damn hard to chop. So much so that I sliced my finger. Ouchies. :( I felt a bit faint seeing all the blood, reminds me of that one time I fainted after seeing my mother prick her finger and the blood gushing out. Anyway, I ended up not eating the potatoes and carrots. :( Cause I couldn’t bite them. :( I should have just boiled plain porridge and eat it with Marmite haih. But if I did that, the boyfriend will surely starve to death. :/

 

5. I feel so stupid cause I cannot seem to remember the formulaes for calculating mean and variance for population. But then I’m not so sure whether it’s population or not. The ones with the interval is called population, and the single number ones are called sample right? Grr. I search online also cannot find. Which reminds me! I calculated the variance for a sample last night and wanted to die, cause my answer did not tally with the correct answer. Only this morning I realized that I had followed the wrong formula. -_- Never trust the internet, I tell you. I found the correct formula hidden in one of the pages of my exercise book lol. But now I cannot find the mean and variance formula for population!! Aarghh just kill me now.

 

6. Got my coursework marks for CRM, and it’s quite low. Okay-lah, not that high and not that low. But still low for my standards. I was doing the calculation part for the past year exam paper, but then I scrolled down to see the rest of the exam paper and nearly died. 50 marks allocated for THEORY QUESTIONS. Must do CRITICAL ANALYSIS WTF. Just let me die now.

 

7. And I still haven’t study finish for Journalism 2. Suddenly I remembered that I have to look for a topic to write an editorial on. Gahhh most obvious choice would be on politics but I haven’t been reading the papers lately. Any ideas, people?

 

8. I’m quite happy that my coursework marks for Comm Theories is quite high. But then maybe it’s because we’re quite used to the lecturer and vice versa, since she taught us a different subject the last semester. I haven’t even sifted through the lecture notes for her tips. Oops. Haha.

 

9. Sigh, Multimedia, multimedia. The tutor still haven’t reply my email. I’ve lost all hope now. Let’s just pray I don’t get a C for the subject. Otherwise I can kiss my 3.0 and chances of getting a 3.6 goodbye.

 

10. Just came back from mamak-ing. There were so many people at Ghany! And a few spotted my haircut…quote Venodh, “Woah, what is this! I couldn’t recognize you just now. Saw Apple then only know.”

 

Surprisingly, I am not having withdrawal symptoms from the loss of a large quantity of my hair. x) Must be the distractions of the braces and looming finals. Okay, back to studying. :D

Pomme’s Birthday April 10, 2009

Just came back from watching Fast and Furious 4 in Ipoh. I know, such a predictable movie, but there’s nothing else better to watch now. Besides, it was so cool!

Basically the plot is predictable and nothing much, but you gotta give credit for the action scenes. Now I feel like driving a car. Hehehe can’t wait to go back to KL!

Also, by watchin F&F4 I have regained my desire for long hair! No, wasn’t influenced by Jordana Brewster, but Gal Gadot’s character. She was so effing hot. She played Gisele Harabo in the movie, Campos’ assistant or whatever she was. She just had the aura of being a woman in control (although I felt that her desire for Vin Diesel’s character was sort of a let-down).

Long hair, long hair, aummmm…

Anyway, reason as to why we went to Ipoh is to celebrate Apple’s birthday! She’s 23 this year, the oldest among our clique (hahaha not that discreet now am I?). We bought her a lingerie set for her birthday as a joke. Here’s a picture!

It’s a see through night gown (with a shorter back to expose the butt!) that comes with a g-string. Yummeh.

Somebody said that she looked like a jellyfish flapping that thing around. She just put on the lingerie over her current clothing, so you can see how transparent it is.

Anyway, her actual present is an MNG small hobo. It’s really nice! All the girls that went to choose her present (namely Kar May, Sheryll and I) fell in love with the bag when we first saw it. Apple exclaimed that she already asked her friend to help her get another MNG bag, but as Kar May said,

“You are a girl. A girl can never have too many handbags.”

Agreed! A girl can also never have too many clothes, shoes, accessories…

We also got her a 3-slice cake from Secret Recipe. Guess what was written on it.

“23rd liao, lou hang!”

It just means, “You’re 23 already, old hag!”

I’ve lost count of how many times Pomme has been called old hag this year. Haha. We’re so evil. But then again, I’m also getting older. I’ll be 20 this year nooooo!

Okay I shall stop blogging. I still have many to blog about! Well, just the opening of a new “club” in Kampar and about the Accidentally In Love musical! Ah, what musical is that, you ask? Watch this space. :P

Fun in the sun April 9, 2009

About two weeks ago, my friends and I took a road trip to Lumut. We heard from Hafiz that there is a beach in Lumut, so we, being bored, wanted to go check it out. After all, it’s the beach! Who doesn’t like bitc- I mean, beaches. We woke up at 7.30am just to eat breakfast before going there. Almost everyone woke up on time. Except for someone who said he’ll definitely wake up on time if he wants to. Heh, if it’s class at 8am nobody would want to wake up for that.

So, with no exact clue on how to go there, Apple, Brian, Kar May, Calvin, Vendell, Rachel, Davin and I went to Lumut. The road trip was possibly one of the most outrageous one for me, because I have never ever asked for directions to go somewhere while in a moving car, and completely in Cantonese.

Anyway, we sort of got lost. But I wouldn’t really call it lost…we were just merely mis-directioned. But it took us more than an hour to get there. Anyway, we went to this place called Teluk Batik which is in Lumut. At first we weren’t sure which beach to go in Lumut, but I remembered that Hafiz went to Teluk Batik, and after his confirmation I was right.

Teluk Batik is nice! It’s like your standard beach with all the stalls selling the same stuff like floats, shorts, cheap swimsuits and stuff. But at least the beach is quite clean. Not muddy at all, and the sand is soft!

As it was a weekend, there were quite a lot of people. Therefore, we went towards the edge of the beach, where there are lesser people.

Looks quite deserted, ey? That’s how far off we were from the middle of the beach. Weirdly enough, there were dinosaurs near the sea, at the rocky area. Not real ones, of course. But why?! It’s just so random. There are chalet-like houses on the hill near the beach though. It looks real cool, though creepy at the same time. Kind of reminded me of the house from When A Stranger Calls.

That’s the house I was talking about. And ooh, look, it’s Davin! As you can see the picture is quite blur. Not a result of Photoshop. It was signs of my camera dying on me. Le sigh.

Actually, it already started showing signs the night before. I took quite a lot of macro pictures and they looked pretty fine to me, but when I wanted to take normal pictures (sans macro mode, of course) they just wouldn’t focus! I had to turn off the camera and turn it back on, and then only it would focus. For about two pictures or so, then it became blur again.

I thought it was because I took too many macro pictures, but then Dickson said it wasn’t the case. Sigh. I just got it repaired in December due to the same lens problem…now it’s spoiled again.

Yeah, a clearer picture. We thought the deck chairs were there for our own enjoyment…but actually we had to pay RM2 for one. Daylight robbery. Next time we’ll just bring a picnic mat!

The few people who went. This is the first time Vendell and his girlfriend went on a roadtrip with us. Now I feel so bonded with Rachel! Whatever that meant. Hahaha.

I was this close to snapping a photo of Vendell taking off his t shirt. This close. But alas, he was too fast for me. It’s okay though, I have another topless picture of him gay-ing with Davin.

Kar May and I. Sigh, can see the hole in my teeth. Makes smiling look so awkward now.

See, this picture of Apple looks so nice! As opposed to the resume picture she took with a fake smile. :P But the bad thing is her eyes are almost disappearing in this picture. LOL

The happy couple. Which reminds me, Calvin’s leg got stung by a small jellyfish. Luckily it’s just a small one! Actually,we spotted it earlier and moved away from the spot, but I guess it favoured Calvin more. He must’ve peed in the sea, that’s why the jellyfish stung him. :P

Heh. When will he ever pull a serious face for photos. :P

The other couple. All in all, there were three sets of couples on this trip. Apple and Brian were the odd ones out, but it’s okay, they can couple couple together as well…hahaha.

It would be quite nice to live in a house like this, if only it were away from all the crowd. But then I think the novelty of it will soon wear off. I’d hate to climb up everyday just to get to my house.

This is the gay picture I was talking about. You can’t see their expression well cause I PS-ed it. But my boyfriend was doing a pouty kissy face! And Vendell was clinging on like a clingy girlfriend.

See, the water was quite clear. None of that muddy puddle you call water. The seawater was extremely salty though. I was reminded about the email I got about a whale ejaculating 70% of its semen into the ocean…

 

It was quite a nice day out. Sunny skies; I like that. A little too hot though, we were getting so burned in the sea. Apple was hiding under the tube to avoid getting sunburnt. I got home and saw my cheeks were quite pink. I thought it might be sunburn, but it didn’t hurt and it was gone the next day.

The ice cream man! I feel very happy and light-hearted whenever I see an ice cream cart like this and listen to the jingles that they play whenever they go around the housing area selling their wares. Brings back a tiny piece of childhood. I didn’t buy an ice cream though. Didn’t feel like eating one during that time. Must be because I felt the pinch of paying RM2 just to use the public toilet to shower and change. Beaches are such daylight robbery.

Anyway, we immediately showered and left the beach after Calvin’s leg got stung. It’s really lucky that a small jellyfish stung him, so the after-effects weren’t really bad, though it must’ve been really pain.

We looked for a McD outlet as we saw a few signs indicating that there was a McD nearby. We just had to have McD for lunch! We were so deprived of it. You city folks don’t know how lucky you are to have McD in every corner of the town.

So yeah, we found it in a gas station. Heaven! Paradise! Filet o’ Fish has never tasted so good.

After that it was a quiet journey back. Everyone was tired, and Davin obviously slept. I wanted to sleep too, but forced myself to keep awake and chat with Apple so that she won’t drift off to sleep as well.

Predictably, everyone crashed out as soon as we finished showering. I wanted to do my laundry but…nah, too tired. :P

Oh yeah, the sob story about my camera dying? It was after I had a quick shower in the public toilet at the beach. I took my camera out to take some random pictures of the beach, and after taking a few photos the lens started going crazy, and the same thing happened like before. The lens wouldn’t close properly, and my camera’s screen turned blue. I was so sad…sigh. I really love my camera. :( However, something disgusting happened to my camera after that. I think it must be the seawater, because my bag got damp from my towel. Then, my camera’s casing also got damp, and my camera got damp, and the paint started chipping out. Disgusting, much? Next time I go to the beach with my camera, I’ll wrap it in plastic! That is, if I can still get back my camera. Currently it’s in the factory; they still haven’t called my mother to see if it’ll cost something to get it repaired, or it’ll be free as I only repaired it in December.

It is so inconvenient to not have a camera. Hate it!

The patience April 8, 2009

My hair’s really irritating me lately. It’s out of shape, the fringe is too long that it disturbs my eyes and constant flicking of it makes it oily, and I look disgusting after that. Right now I just have the urge to go to the salon and snip it all off!

I saw this girl who came to the musical, and she was really, really pretty. Her hair was cut really short like boy style, but with a slight feminine touch. Her features were also really feminine! I feel like getting a haircut like that, but I’m afraid I might not be able to pull it off.

But at the same time, I’ve been wanting to keep my hair long. I’m torn between keeping my hair long cause I’ve never really had long, long hair, and wanting to cut my hair real short cause I don’t want to be one of those typical “Chinese-y” girls with standard long hair and fake laughs.

Today while on the bus, I saw this girl with really flat, shapeless long hair, a typical frown on her face and ugly clothes. Sounds like me! But it’s not. She’s probably like me in every way except that I’m thinner than her and (probably) dress better than her. I think I should start smiling more. But the gaps of my teeth! And my buck teeth!

I cannot wait to put braces and take it off. I want straighter teeth. 11 more days.

By the way, I finally got an internship. Blu Inc rejected me, but ACP didn’t. I should be happy, and I am, but I’m kinda miffed that I have to intern at Women’s Weekly magazine and not Cleo. I am so not old enough to work at WW. Good news and bad news is that I have no interview. I get totally nervous at interviews, but then I wanted to ask them about the dress code…I hope I don’t need to dress formally all the time. Or any time at all. Can I wear jeans? Can I wear short skirts?

It is going to be so weird to walk in on the 1st of June and say, “Hi, I’m the new intern for Women’s Weekly. Where should I go?”

Sick as a dog March 3, 2009

Now I don’t know where that phrase came from. The last two nights were the worst nights of my life. The first night it was so hard for my to sleep because my hands and feet were icy cold even though I wore long pants and a long sleeved top. After two hours it was still icy cold so I put on socks and I slept with my hands wound around my neck cause that’s the warmest part of my body. I wished so much that someone would hold my hands to keep it warm while I slept sigh.

That was Sunday night. Then the next day I thankfully had only one class, but when I went to class I almost wanted to die because I was coughing nonstop and nearly puked from coughing. And then when I went out of class I couldn’t stop sweating. And Max said I looked like crap cause my hair was all matted to my forehead from the sweat and I had a purplish tinge under my eyes.

So I went home and I slept. Not after having the most tasteless lunch ever. Tofu, tofu, and french beans. Omg the curry chicken looked SO good but I couldn’t eat it. I hate being sick.

When I went home and slept I got a fever again. At night we celebrated Jeremy’s 21st birthday at Kim Keong. It was really fun, but the longer I stayed there the more I felt like dying. Went home, ate my medicine and thankfully started to sweat a little. I didn’t turn on the fan in my room, but I left the windows open. It’d been raining earlier so there was a really cool breeze. But as much as I tossed and turned I couldn’t fall asleep.

Haih, and all this while I wished I was in KL, because then my mother would be around and she’d know what to do to take care of me. :( I fell sick since last Friday and when I was in KL my mother immediately boiled for me this leong cha to drink. It was so nice. :(

I actually recovered from my fever on Saturday, but after I extracted my teeth on Sunday I got a fever again. At the same time I feel so sad over the loss of my two perfectly good teeth; now what’s left of it are two swollen, gaping holes. Next weekend another two gaping holes will appear. Sigh.

My cough medicine finished. And my cough is nowhere near being cured. Sigh sigh. And I skipped all my classes today.

Je suis étudiante! February 19, 2009

Had my first French class yesterday. It was a mixture of humour, embarrassment, surprise, confusion, and boredom.

I forgot how embarrassing and funny it is to first learn a language. With everybody getting the pronounciations wrong, I think the lecturer was probably silently pulling out his French hair in exasperation.

Oh yeah, the lecturer is a native French guy, methinks. I think his name is Dr. Assia ( I didn’t catch it, as I was a little late to class).  He’s an okay kind of guy, just that it’s a little hard to understand him as his French accent was so thick, especially when he speaks in English. Overall, he’s not bad.

Learned quite a few things yesterday! Pronounciation was very difficult though…especially for numbers. And the “r”. I can’t roll my tongue on the “r”, so for words like ‘arbre’ (that’s ‘tree’ in French :D), ‘quatre’ (four), I don’t think I can pronounce it quite correctly.

Also, the confusing thing about French is that they have different spellings for masculine and feminine words, a little bit like Mandarin. Beau for masculine and belle for feminine. (Hahaha can you tell by now that I’m showing off xD)

The surprise was that Miss Chiok was also in the French class! :O So far I didn’t see many familiar faces, just one or two Biotech students and this guy who ran for the SRC. Forgot if he got in or not. Oh well.

Classes ended at 8.30pm yesterday, so I was really tired. I slept at 11pm, woohoo! All in all I got about 11 hours of sleep, so I am really energized now. Albeit a few aches here and there.

Classes at 1pm, hence I could sleep in. Hehe :D