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When I was 13, I first entered high school. I had my first period, first bra (wtf), first acne breakout. I had a very bad temper which resulted in me sitting alone most of the time. I only wanted two things then – a boyfriend and a cellphone. Shallow, I know. But I was only thirteen then. :D
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When I was 14, I fell head over heels with a senior. He was a Board of Director in the Interact Club. Because of him, I became extremely active in the club, with hopes of seeing him more often. I was quite obvious about my crush with said senior, so much so that almost everyone in the club knew. My little crush turned into an obsession, and I started stalking him. When I say “stalk”, I’m using the term loosely. Read carefully because I will be using this term again soon. It basically means that I was texting him every other day (with my mother’s cellphone, nonetheless), and omg, here’s the embarrassing part. I once borrowed his tie to be used for assembly (he was in the morning session, I was in the afternoon). I returned him the tie…except that it was mine. Sadly, he found out and demanded I return it the next day. I was also really naive then, and was a bit upset that he became cold towards me. Thankfully, the fourteen year old me soon found someone else to crush on (at a span of 3/4 of a year, that was my longest crush yet. LOL). It’s been years since then, but I think he still feels weird about it. I don’t blame him, I still feel weird about my stalker too. But now when I think back about this incident, I laugh. :P I was so so naive. Haha.
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When I was 15, I got my first boyfriend. He was in the school basketball team. He was also sort of the head gangster of the school. Sorry, but I’m not very sure about these things. But, I have to admit that being the First Girlfriend (variation of First Lady, geddit geddit) was pretty cool. I once, almost got Mervyn bashed up for something offensive he said to me. Good times, good times. Hahaha sorry Mervyn. However, first boyfriend and I never did anything. We never held hands, hug, kiss or anything of the sort. The only couple-y things we did were walk together after school. At least he had the courtesy to wait for me after school and carry my stuff despite skipping so many classes. :D Anyway, we only lasted two months because I could sense he was getting bored and I didn’t want him to dump me wtf.
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When I was 16, I made the mistake of being too friendly to a guy and he thought I liked him. Obviously because I didn’t feel the same for him and I felt awkward, I also made the mistake of ignoring and avoiding him. Then he started stalking me (refer to above definition). Somehow, the entire form knew about this incident. -__- Thankfully, he stopped when we were in Form 5 and went on to stalk my good friend instead.
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When I was 17, I got my second boyfriend. He was a year younger than me, and it was one of my happier years. However, I was still pretty naive. I did the mistake of ditching my friends when I got a boyfriend – the typical attitude. It was also the year I had my SPM, was a Board of Director in Interact, and was in the yearbook team. Basically it was the peak of my high school life – I had lots of fun, and I was involved in a lot. I actually love being involved in activities, but not as a leader. But yeah, 2006 was one of the best years of my life. :)
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When I was 18, I entered my first year of university, studying foundation at UTAR in PJ. I was positively depressed about this, as majority of my friends went to Taylors (or all other colleges in the Subang area) and I had to go to UTAR instead – with zero friends and zero knowledge in Chinese. As expected, everyone spoke in Chinese – I was almost convinced I wouldn’t be able to make any close friends here, until my soulmate, Kar May took the initiative to talk to me. T_T Thank you, my soulmate. After that, all the other friends nicely came in. :D
Although life was all good in the university, my own love life was going up in flames. All I can say is, it was disastrous. It was emotionally draining, and I don’t think I’ve ever suffered so much before.
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When I was 19, I left home for the first time to study in a different state – ye olde Kampar. I was excited at the thought of moving to someplace away from home, with my friends. But yet, I was dreading it because of the emotional baggage. When I was 19, I drank alcohol for the first time. When I was 19, I got the courage to cut off ties with my emotional baggage. Let me tell you, I have never felt more free or relieved. It’s probably safe to say that I was quite happy in Kampar, despite its laid back vibe.
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Sad to say, I am no longer a teenager. Being a teenager was good – you could do mistakes and get away from it just because you’re a teenager. I made a lot of mistakes which I’m learning from now.
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It was my birthday yesterday. Happy 20th to me. :)
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