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Full Throttle – Breaks Supremos August 26, 2008

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My wish came true! I went for the Breaks Supremos last Saturday. At first I was kinda reluctant to go, ’cause I had to squeeze inside Karen’s car which already had five other people. But…when Karen said I could follow I immediately jumped at the opportunity. Thanks Karen!!

True to Murphy’s Law, when there were four people in the back seat, there HAD to be a police roadblock. We thought there was another way, so we went through the housing area. Turns out there wasn’t. So Jeremy had to get out and wait by the side of the road while we pass the road bloack. Haha.

So we reached Ipoh and went to where Full Throttle was held…in a stadium. Forgot the name of it. The current event going on when we reached was the car drifting event. Sadly, they didn’t use flashy cars. Then Brian scolded me and asked me to think of the logic. Drifting is expensive. Who’s gonna pay for the damage on them flashy cars? Good point. It was a good experience though, my first time watching a drift show. Dirty. Especially when the sand flew around.

This is also a good opportunity for me to take more pictures. I apologise, some of my pictures aren’t really nice.

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The grand chase August 19, 2008

Filed under: Eat Shit Sleep Post — ponnie @ 4:05 pm

Let’s do an ESS post today. Hmmm let’s see. Last Friday marked the end of my most stressed over presentation, so yeah I was damn relaxed over the weekend. The reason why I was stressing over a mere presentation is cause…it wasn’t just a mere presentation. It’s individual, so I had to do all the research on my own, and really read through the case study in the textbook. At many (not just one) points I really regretted picking the topic I picked (which was about media in the Middle East) but in the end, I think it was a good thing that I picked that topic.

Mainly cause my very analytical lecturer didn’t do very in depth research on my topic, therefore she didn’t have much to comment. Ha! She asked me lots of questions after class though.

Since I was so free during the weekend…I downloaded Grand Chase and I guess I can say I’m sorta hooked on it. It’s a game similar to that of Street Fighters. Enough said.

I woke up in the afternoon on Saturday. So nice. It’s been a very long time since I woke up in the afternoon. Then on Sunday I woke up at 7am to cycle up to Kampar Waterfall! There were six of us; Jerms, Tien Seng, Mx, Apple, Kar May and I.

Since I now know how to utilize gears in a bicycle, it wasn’t so tiring for me to cycle up this time around. We trekked up higher and found a new waterfall spot! Some parts there were deep and Kar May and I nearly drowned…it was hilarious. For me. Many thanks to Apple and Tien Seng for saving me. *big wet eyes*

I missed a whole day of class yesterday due to laziness. The weather is also to be blamed.

I want to go for Breaks Supremos in Ipoh this Saturday. Hope I can! I wanna see Davin compete…hehe. Plus there’s this autoshow…and we *might* be going clubbing later! But my main reason is to see Davin compete of course. RM15 ticket is no problem for meeeee I’ll pay any amount to see my vinvin hohoho.

*cough* If I can’t go…then we’ll cycle up to the waterfall again.

 

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Being Gentlemanly August 14, 2008

Filed under: In My Humble Opinion, Randoms — ponnie @ 4:57 am

I am not a strong feminist, and though I appreciate some form of equality between both genders, sometimes it is nice to have guys act as gentlemens at times. It is not wrong to ask for simple gentlemanly gestures from time to time, as to some guys, it is probably natural as they are brought up with such values. Some guys don’t seem to be brought up with those values; I don’t know, maybe it’s some unhidden reason. =/

Anyway! These are the few gentlemanly gestures which I think are very, very important for guys!

1. Holding doors open.

This, is the most important one. Most of my guy friends will do that, though. Actually, this should be applied to girls as well. Okay, let me rephrase. Whether a girl or guy, whoever is the first to exit through the door should hold it open for the next person. It’s called polite, it’s called courtesy. Can you imagine anything more rude than a door closing in your face? It feels like rejection, and furthermore, what if the next person didn’t realize you weren’t going to leave the door open, then the door slams in their face, literally? Ouch.

2. Waiting for a girl to go inside her house after sending her home.

Fortunately though, most the guys I know who drive a car will do that. However, when we are all walking together, they don’t do that. Why, I wonder? It doesn’t matter anyway. Let me relate to you something that happened last night! Ky-Ean was sending Kar May and I home (he just lives opposite us) by car, then when we got out the both of us were chatting and taking our time going inside the house. We didn’t realize Ky-Ean was waiting for us to go inside. =X Only when we went inside did I realize that Ky-Ean just drove off. Well, I don’t know if he was talking on the phone or waiting for us to go inside, but I’d like to think it’s the latter.

3. Walking a girl back if she’s alone.

Sometimes I’ll take the bus 1 which doesn’t go inside Westlake, so I’d have to walk back to my house from the entrance. It’s quite a distance. I have this classmate who’s a male chauvinist (he disapproves of girls wearing their top too low cut and thinks my racerback top is “revealing” -___-) so if I happen to be walking back alone he’ll always ask if he needs to accompany me back to my house. Usually I decline ’cause he lives quite a distance from my house. Sometimes he gets home and rides his friends motorcycle to make sure I’m okay. -_- Irritating, but if my boyfriend was like that it’ll be sweet. *hint*

4. Opening the car door for your girlfriend.

Okay, this is a little bit too much, but it’s very sweet if your boyfriend does it to you! I sometimes see Calvin doing that for Kar May. Or so I think it’s him. Is it them? Or another couple. *doubts*

I can’t think of any more for now. This post is of no significance, just wanted to talk about it.

 

Cameron Highlands August 12, 2008

Filed under: Eat Shit Sleep Post, Events — ponnie @ 9:53 am

Last weekend my parents came up to Kampar to bring me to Cameron Highlands for a weekend retreat. Why they had that spontaneous idea I don’t know, but all I knew was that I was going to have an extremely boring weekend. The weekend was initially reserved for going to the waterfall. Unfortunately, my aunty came. Then my parents suggested going to Cameron Highlands (no relations here). Then, Kar May and Apple’s boyfriends decide to come. Whereas Jeremy and friends were going to Ipoh on Saturday. Well, guess it’s a good thing my parents are coming then.

For a youngster, Cameron is an extremely boring place. Well known for only its cold weather, veg, flowers and tea, there is nothing a bored teenager can do there. Plus the ride up was excruciatingly long and windy, other than the usual villagers and stray dogs, there was nothing else but greenery. I swear, the greenery is enough to make me throw up.

Well anyway, my parents made the smart move of not booking a place to stay. Usually we’d stay in Equatorial, which is at the highest point of Cameron. Since it was quite a way up, my dad suggested we stop by this place we used to stay in when I was very small. Well, the place is very high class now that all the rooms are priced at USD, not RM! Craziness. Anyway I saw Michelle Yeoh and her boyfriend there, but I didn’t take a picture with her.

We went up to Equatorial anyway. Place was fully booked. Shocking. We found a newly opened place nearer to the town, its name is Hotel Titiwangsa. If you ever go to Cameron, please don’t stay there. For starters, they have this ridiculous rule that a room with a king sized bed cannot be resided by more than two people. What the fuck?! A king sized bed would be enough for the three of us to sleep on. We wanted the room with only one king sized bed, but the nitpicking, snack-eating receptionist told us it’s not possible. Such arrogance she has! I was freakin’ pissed by then, so I asked her in a very loud voice, “Are those the rules?”

Fortunately, they are, or so she said. I wasn’t convinced because she said it in not a very decisive way. Therefore we had to take the room with two king sized beds, which was a freaking waste for us.

Oh wait, don’t go. I have more complaints. The bed was cold and hard. There wasn’t a box of tissues to be seen anywhere. And the toilets!! Do you know how absurd the toilets were?!

Usually hotels have a nice, well spaced bathrooms with a bathtub and a big sink, right?

Not this one. For some uncanny reasons, this hotel has two, I repeat, TWO toilets in one room. Small ones too, I might add. The size of one toilet is half the size of our Westlake bathrooms. One toilet has a toiletbowl. Another toilet has a showering area and an extremely small sink.

Decorations for the room were also extremely disgusting. Bad choice of plastic flowers (please-lah, Cameron is full of cheap, nice, and FRESH flowers! Don’t be so stingy!), bad design and colour of vase, bad choice of picture on wall. You know what picture they hung on the wall? It’s a picture of the road leading up to Cameron, with two cars on the road! Ugly ugly.

Sigh. Okay, enough about ugly hotel rooms. After resting for awhile, we went up to Brinchang in the evening.

In Cameron, the nicest things there are their plants. Great photography subject too, so obviously I took lots of pictures.

Don’t ask me the names of the flowers. Other than roses and cacti, I know of nothing else.

My mother.

Later we decided to drive down to Tanah Rata, where the streets are a slight trendier and it’s filled with angmohs. There’s even a Starbucks there for gawd’s sake! I didn’t drink no Starbucks though. My parents find the price absurd. :(

In Tanah Rata there’s a lot of quaint restaurants, some located in upper shophouses. There’s another thing that intrigues me; why are there so many banana leaf restaurants there? There’s one in every row of shophouses. Perhaps it’s the spicy food that keeps people warm, the same way like steamboat does.

Anyway, we went for a drink before our dinner. I was being like the ultimate innocent daughter; when my mother asked me to try her punch, I asked her, “Does it have alcohol inside?” Meaning, if there is, I am doubtful of drinking; not the other way round. I ordered some mango and blackcurrant smoothie, whereas my dad had beer. Bad choice for me; I was freakin’ shivering after my drink.

We asked the waiter to help us take a picture.

Dinner was at another restaurant later. I was cold, so I ordered Assam Laksa. Although it was nice, I kind of regretted not ordering spaghetti, cause my dad did and it was so delicious! I can’t put my finger on it, there’s a taste in it that feels different than the other spaghettis I’ve eaten.

The next day we went somewhere near Equatorial. Forgot the name. It’s another market, but kind of boring. There’s a souvenir shop there, which sells the ugliest home decor:

I’d never buy these ugly, plastic, dust-collecting things and hang ‘em on my wall.

Oh yeah. I forgot to mention. Cameron Highlands is also really famous for its strawberries.

You see them everywhere in abundance.

 

Love and All Things like That August 11, 2008

Filed under: Emo-ing — ponnie @ 5:22 pm

 

I am an avid lover; if that even makes sense. I realize almost all my relationships follow the same pattern; like, love, clingy, break. It’s almost like one of the profit graphs I learned in Marketing; when you start out a business, it goes steadily up. Then when it reaches its climax, it has nowhere to go but down.

The same goes with most of my previous relationships. Although I am trying very hard to not make my current relationship end up the same way as my previous ones, it looks like I am not doing very well.

I am the kind of person who loves with her whole heart. Once I give my whole heart to someone, somehow I become possessive of that someone, obsessed even.

I usually start out in relationships as the blasé type. Sure, I like my other half a lot; I just haven’t started to love him yet. Give me probably a few weeks to a month, and I’ll start loving him a lot, especially if he showers me with his love.

I don’t know why I’m like that. Perhaps I’m still adjusting to a new relationship, and probably feel a bit doubtful about why he would like me enough to be his girlfriend. I’m insecure that way; I never think I’m good enough to be a girlfriend to someone I really like.

 Maybe that’s why my previous relationships didn’t work out. While the guy is showing me his love and I’m starting to accept it, when I finally embrace it and return it to him, he’s already bored and looking for other people to give his love to. I don’t regret that the previous relationships didn’t work out though, because if they worked out, I wouldn’t have met Davin.

I’m trying not to repeat my mistakes. Like I said earlier, when I love someone too much, I tend to be possessive over that person. When I start getting possessive…things usually take an ugly turn. Everything I say or do to him seems to have an underlying spite, and it bites at not only him, but me as well. I realize all that is happening and the destruction I’m creating, but it’s like somebody has taken over my mind and body; I can’t seem to control what I say or do. It’s like I’m driving but somebody else it at the wheels; I see a barrier ahead and I know I’m gonna crash, but I can’t seem to step on the brake and stop.

I don’t know why I do this to the both of us. He says he’s tired of me making him feel like a bad boyfriend, and I don’t know. Is he a bad boyfriend? Or am I just too picky? He always tells me to tell him if I’m dissatisfied about something, because he will do the same. I think it’s a good idea, but why can’t I bring myself to tell him at times? What am I proving? That I’m understanding and forgiving, or I’m just living in denial that he’s not as perfect as I envisioned him to be?

I know that nobody’s perfect. That’s why I don’t wanna pick on the little things, that’s why I bottle things up inside me. When I talked to my friend about it, he said that I should let my boyfriend know if he did something that I didn’t quite like instead of bottling it up, ‘cause eventually it’ll spill out one day, and that’ll be even worse.

My ex boyfriend told me before that I should learn to share my feelings and problems instead of bottling everything inside. I’ve tried, and I am still trying, but there is something that keeps me from succeeding. I can’t seem to pinpoint the reason; is it my ego, the fear of being seen as weak and then judged, or am I just brought up like that? I’ve never grown up sharing my problems, and I don’t know how to start.

I know what I just said contradicts what I’m doing now. Sometimes it’s just so much easier to release all your emotions to faceless readers and anonymous names, rather than people you know, love and trust. Just like what Jolene once said.

I wonder if my feelings sometimes cloud my judgement. It worries me. I look back and I see the difference between the then and now, and I feel, what happened? Does he love me lesser now? Though he’s still as loving now as he is then, why do I feel that it’s still different from before? And the answer is always the same thing I tell him over and over again, “I just think too much.”

And you know, probably I do. I’m wondering if I should seek counselling for being so damn insecure and paranoid. But yet I don’t want to, because I know once that door in the counselling room closes, I’ll just break down and cry.

I love him very much, but I am so afraid that I’m driving him away with all these nonsense of mine.

Please bear with me my dear, because I love you very, very much. I’ll get better soon enough. Will you be patient for me?

 

 

My Wordle August 10, 2008

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Tagged by Luzzio to do it:

If you’re interested, you can check out Wordle.net and get busy!

 

The monetary issue August 7, 2008

Filed under: In My Humble Opinion — ponnie @ 2:27 am

Those people with no money issues are so lucky.

Last week when I went back home to KL, my mother questioned me about my finances. Apparently when she banked in money into my account, the amount seemed lesser than usual.

I panic when asked about my financial issues, especially with my mother. She tends to have that guilt-trip effect on me; I’ll feel guilty about spending money even if it’s on necessities.

So panic I did, and I suddenly blanked out about how I could spend so much, when I’d actually forgotten I withdrew quite a sum a few days before returning to KL, just in case I needed it.

So I automatically told her the first thing that came to my mind,”I paid for my rental before she banked in money for me.”

I actually don’t know roughly how much one spends here, in Kampar. But I do know that I’ve been snacking more often lately, hence the increase in my expenditures. Like I told Apple earlier, those little snacks you eat; buns, biscuits, tidbits, though they are cheap, but when accumulated it still adds up to quite a lot of money.

Everytime during lunch I’m faced with the dilemma whether to eat the chap fan (economy rice) or eat a bun to save money. Naturally one would think of eating buns as saving money, but then think of it this way:

A bun is roughly RM1.40. If you eat economy rice with small rice, one dish of veg, tofu and egg, it costs around RM1.80. So between a bun and economy rice, the latter is more filling and more worth it, right?

Right. Problem is, I like meat too, so sometimes if I take small rice with a dish of veg and one chicken drumstick it’s RM2.50.

But even that is quite cheap. I’ll admit. Sometimes it’s not filling for me, so I’ll buy an ice cream too which actually costs more than my lunch. -_-

Not to mention, sometimes you’d prefer drinking something else other than your bottle of water.

Anyway, part of my point for discussing this is because the reason why I don’t wanna eat so much is so that I can save more money. I’ve started writing down my expenditures since the middle of June, and I can roughly see that most of the money I spend on is excessive food. Which means I am snacking in between meals.

I’ve read somewhere that snacking in between meals is not good, and that eating breakfast actually helps you slim down.

I haven’t been eating regular breakfasts since I came to Kampar. I used to do it in the first few weeks…then I got lazy. Heh.

Oh, regarding expenditures, I find that I’m spending more on bus tickets back to KL too. ‘Cause I go back often. But it’s okay, sometimes my dad reimburses me for that. =X

I admit though, I might be guilty in buying a few “luxury items” (like clothes), but I don’t do that every single time. Sigh.

Last week I saw this MNG racerback top for RM35. For MNG, it’s pretty cheap, but then for a top it’s not that cheap either, seeing as it’s the mega sales now. I didn’t buy it though I wanted to. *pines*

I also saw a spaghetti strap top and shorts combo, which goes for RM29.90 at Nichii.

I hate having money issues.

Most of all, I hate feeling guilty everytime I spend money on these “luxury items”.

 

Growling August 5, 2008

Filed under: Randoms — ponnie @ 4:54 am

I feel so hungry. But I won’t succumb to it.

I cleaned the fridge just now. Threw out all the muck that’s rotten inside there, and cleaned out the ice inside the freezer. Picked out lint and hair that’s inside the fridge.

I’m still very hungry. I’m going to drink more water.