Klutz. October 30, 2007

Somehow my folder containing all my camera pictures has magically disappeared. -.-

I was such a klutz today. After lunch, as we were walking back to class, it started raining. So we used a shortcut, but the entrance was half closed by the metal railings. I kept my head down, so I forgot (and didn’t see) the railing there and

*BAM!*

I hit my head.

It was so fucking loud that I saved Kar May from having her head crash too. She was about to enter, heard me crash, and stopped. The railing was just milimetres away from her head.

Being the klutzy me, I started laughing as if the crash hit me crazy. I didn’t feel any pain, then someone noticed this on my forehead:

Huh huh! Who go and laugh at me huh!

(To be fair, I was laughing at myself as well.)

It’s not as bad as it looks though. It’s not bleeding, it doesn’t even hurt when water touches it. It’s just marks I guess.

Yeah I know. Balasan for writing the last entry.

You know what I hate? October 29, 2007

People who act like they’re totally friends with you after doing something wtf-ed like say, going through their good friend’s conversation between them and you? -.-

Not to mention having the courtesy to say that it’s MY fault that it happened and he so forgave me even though I didn’t do anything wrong?

<sarcasm> 

Oh sure, rejecting you is wrong. Yeah, so wrong. Please, let me get struck down by lightning. I’ll never know anybody who’ll treat me as nice as you.

</sarcasm>

You want a sorry from me? You’ll never get it.

If you would just do me a favour, make like bees, and fcuk off my life. Thank you very much.

Yeah yeah, go write about me all you want. It doesn’t matter anymore, you’ve written about me in not one, not two, but three blogs. An added extra wouldn’t hurt anymore.

It disgusts me to see you acting like as if that lowly thing you did never happened. It happened, and I will never forget it.

Honey & Clover October 28, 2007

I wish I could watch Honey & Clover seasons 1 and 2 over and over again. Season 2 was bloody short though.

Although Honey & Clover appears to be a cutesy anime with lots of humour, it’s also pretty deep.

I like all of the main characters in Honey & Clover, but if I had to name my favourite, it would be Takemoto.

If any of you watched the anime, you would realize that it’s Takemoto and Yamada are usually the ones philosophing. When Takemoto philosophies, it’s really deep. When Yamada philosophies, it’s really sad. When I first watched Honey & Clover, I couldn’t really relate to Yamda. After watching it for the third time, I realized I could. And I got hooked more to the anime.

But anyway, my favourite character is still Takemoto. He starts out as a shy boy, everyone’s favourite. He tolerates Morita. I’m still kind of upset that he didn’t end up getting together with Hagu, but seeing Shuuji and Hagu is…still good.

I still can’t get over the fact that Shuuji loves Hagu not merely as an uncle-niece relationship. The whole discovery is as shocking as discovering Dumbledore is gay.

In the first season of H&C, I thought Hagu was this cute character who was really shy and cried a lot. But after her accident in season 2, she really changed. She became a whole lot braver. I like that.

I’m also happy that Yamada managed to get over Mayama (or did she really?) but I’m upset that Mayama doesn’t like Yamada more than a friend.

It’s true, the prettiest girls have the most problems. You can be so beautiful with so many guys going after you, but the one guy you love, loves someone else.

How can you be better than the one he loves? You are already better. You can’t change his heart. No matter what you do, he’ll never love you.

Which brings me to question: Would you choose the one who loves you, or the one you love?

I want to be like Takemoto. I want to be able to say that I’m so happy because I love someone, not because he loves me back.

I want to be like Mayama. I want to be able to save up lots of money, so that if my loved one is unwell, I am able to say, “Take a rest. I’ll take over from here.” .

I want to be like Morita and make lots of money wtf.

I’m so obsessed with H&C that I downloaded all their piano scores to play.

As usual I get pretty emo after something I like ends. (e.g., Harry Potter books finished, Paradise Kiss manga finished reading, H&C series finished…)

Everything in my life is ending…

Hopefully Jigoku Shoujo 2 doesn’t end soon. I wanna emo more. Hey, Jigoku Shoujo isn’t scary. It’s sad.

I want to be impassive like Ai Enma.

Impassive is good. People will never know how you feel.

Kay going out of topic here.

<closing>

I wanna watch Honey & Clover over and over again.

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You baskets October 26, 2007

How come you people never answered my question from the last post?! -_-

Should I re-cut my hair or should I leave it as it is?

Hairstyles tag October 24, 2007

 I hereby state that I’m in a good mood today plus in the mood for doing something totally random. So I stole a tag from this blog. It’s a picture tag, stating the different hairstyles you’ve had over the past few years. You probably won’t detect much change, but appreciate the fact that I purposely looked through my whole Photobucket and Shutterfly album to look for it! Be prepared for lotsa pics, I hope.

 

9 years old! I don’t know when I scanned this picture into my computer but I found it in Shutterfly. Ahem. Note mushroom hair. Back then I didn’t know about hairstyles (though I always wanted long hair, but my mum didn’t allow it) and my mum usually cut my fringe.

2004. Sorry for the bad image quality, I was still using my i Camera back then. So…yeah. When I was in form 3 somehow I liked putting oil on my hair (hoping it would be less dry and more straight) but…the results were really…ick. Only one person actually had the courtesy to tell me I shouldn’t use oil on my hair (Amanda) but I didn’t listen until like…many more months later? Regret regret. Those were embarrassing times…now that I look back, I cringe at how bad my hair was.

Early 2005. Although it looks like I have no fringe here, I actually have. It’s hidden. But anyways here’s probably how I look if I had a full length fringe. (P.S. Zomg Pei Yi compare the length of your hair back then and now.)

I forgot, was this late 2004 or early 2005? I think it’s early 2005. This picture was taken during my high school’s Hari Kecemerlangan where I got a cert and RM30 for my PMR “achievements”. Sadly I wasn’t invited back this year. You can see how oily and matted my fringe was. Ick. Back then I’ve never thought of waking up early and washing my hair before going to school.

I think this was taken in August ‘05. Hair looks a little better now, fringe a little longer.

 

This is taken in early 2006. Look how long my hair was! I think I just cut my fringe. Other than the length, I wouldn’t say I love this hairstyle, ’cause back then I still couldn’t explain the baldness of the sides of my head.

Mid 2006. I think I trimmed my hair, that’s why it looks a little short. My fringe had grown out.

Somewhere in 2006. My fringe looks a little messy and sweaty here heh. Not much different, I just wanted to put this picture up ’cause it’s nice. =)

Late 2006. Hate hate hate this fringe. I looked so bald it’s so embarrassing. Of course you can see the (digital) paint mark there.

I think this was during April 2007. I just trimmed my hair and cut my fringe. This time, I managed to show the hairdresser an example of the fringe I wanted so that the sides of my head wouldn’t look so bald. It doesn’t look really good here, ’cause it hasn’t grown out yet.

Early 2007. I think this, by far, is the best hairstyle I’ve ever had. My hair was long enough, it was smooth (’cause I was using Loreal Elseve!!!) and the fringe was just nice. Why oh why did I cut my hairrrrr. Btw my skin looks damn smooth here. Why am I having pimples now?!?

After I cut my long hair short. This was in mid-late July this year, methinks. You can see how smooth it looks ’cause I just cut it like, a few days before this picture was taken.

 

Most current hairstyle. A few weeks earlier my hand got itchy and I cut my own fringe. I can’t say I’m too happy with it, at times I feel like re-cutting it to a Rihanna style but at times I tell myself to be patient and wait for my hair to grow.

Question: Should I re-cut, or let it be?

I tag:

Pei Yi. (I don’t care you must do!)

Luzzio.

Cherrie.

Cold Tuesday October 23, 2007

I notice I hardly blog about my daily life ever since I moved to WordPress. Mostly ’cause it’s pretty routine. Anyway, (I’m sure nobody would wanna know anyway) I guess I’ll blog more about it as I’m running outta things to blog about.

9am class today. I slept in the car as usual, so I was quite sleepy at the start of the day. It’s been raining since yesterday night so it’s also cold. I was feeling kind of depressed the whole morning, and it didn’t help that there was 2 hours of Math lecture. How boring. I hardly concentrated as my mind was distracted about something that happened last night, as well as the top of the UTAR building. I wonder, I’ve never been to the rooftop of UTAR before. I’d like to go there one day and chill.

Something random: During the 5 minutes break from Math lecture, I wanted to buy Vitagen to drink but the canteen ran out. Sigh. Deprived of the simple things in life.

Moving on. I thought I didn’t wanna eat anything for lunch ’cause of my toothache, but I was totally hungry so I gave in. There wasn’t much choice of food, as it was past lunchtime and most of the dishes in the chap fan store were finishing. I took a few miserable stalks of veg and small pieces of curried chicken. Total cost? RM2.

I don’t know what’s the point of me eating anyway ’cause I can’t even chew the food properly so I could only like, chew it twice, and swallow. It was hardly enough. I still felt hungry after eating so I ordered Neslo. After drinking that, I was definitely filled. Lol.

I felt slightly less depressed after lunch ’cause maybe I was full and contented, and I got an okay text.

Math tutorial later wasn’t so bad. Even though the tutor isn’t very nice, at least whatever she explains can actually be understood. Plus she isn’t indecisive with her explaining.

(Afraid to talk bad about the Uni in case my blog gets tracked down. Don’t know about UTAR having these devices, but after reading Jolene’s blog I can’t be too sure of myself.)

Bought myself a new umbrella. The old one broke, its spokes were too fragile. The new one isn’t anything pretty, it’s okay enough I guess.

Disgusting fact: While sleeping in the evening I drooled on my arm. Eew.

Feeling depressed all over again now. I <3 my emo songs.

I got stabbed. October 22, 2007

Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italise the statements that you WISH are true.
Leave the fibs alone.

Then, stab 3 people to do the same test:

I miss somebody right now.
I do not watch tv these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I have tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I have changed mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I curse.
I’m totally smart.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller ID.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don’t hate anyone.
I’m a pretty good dancer.
I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I’m not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I’m shy around members of the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush.
I have tried alcohol before.
I own the South Park movie.
I would die for my best friend.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I am happy at this moment!
I’m obsessed with girls.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I study for tests most of the time.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I’m proficient in an musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movie.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state. (going to)
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can’t live without black eyeliner.
I don’t know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake’s slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve written in.
I can’t stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep. (when I was small)
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
I have jazz in my blood.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I wear a toe ring.
I can’t stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I’m an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

I stab: Anyone who hasn’t done this.

Black Monday October 22, 2007

I had a class at 11am today, but I had to follow my mum out to do some stuff regarding her work, so I woke up like 2 hours before I would probably wake up. Imagine. Two hours more of blissful sleep. Sigh.

But anyway, last night was a good night. I didn’t wake up in the middle of the night feeling the pain of my tooth growing. It’s really stupid, I’m already eighteen and my wisdom tooth is only growing now. Growing teeth must be the most painful thing I’ll ever experience. That is, if I don’t get my hand or whatever parts of my body cut off or something. (touchwood) But then again, if any parts of my body were to be disembodied, at least I’m allowed some morphine. Somebody please give me morphine now!

So anyway, I arrived like 1/2 hours early and I saw someone I disliked, but anyway it doesn’t matter. My karma points are already negative as it is. With nothing to do, I went to the computer lab and did random things, like post an entry which I’ve deleted cause now that I read it back it seems a little bimbotic and mean. Oh, I also did a few Friendster bulletin tags.

Went to class on time and found that…well, seats have been taken. So I sat beside Linda today for the fiiirst time. Nothing much though, I didn’t have much to talk with to her other than the occasional sarcastic/mean remarks about people’s hair and lesbian talk. Ahem.

Lunch today was a disaster. Firstly we were dismissed late because a lecturer was too long winded. It was either that or she didn’t know how to check her watch. Secondly our break was at 1pm, meaning lunch time. The mamaks were so filled with people so space was kinda cramped. Thirdly my lunch order was forgotten. Fourthly my gums hurt so much I ate slowly.

Sighhhh okay tomorrow I won’t eat lunch just drink something. And have a heavy breakfast.

Today sucked.

- October 20, 2007

I know I detest smokers and swore I’d never ever try smoking.

But right now I am so bloody pissed I feel like sucking on a cigarette.

Preferably a strawberry flavoured one.

My favourite feelings October 20, 2007

Crushing on someone and kind of knowing that they like you too. It’s been awhile since I felt that…

Putting in hard work for an assignment and getting good results from it.

Chatting on the phone for a few hours and laughing at each other.

Looking at his picture and feeling this bubbly overflow of love feeling.

Last but not least…

The feeling of sleeping comfortably after peeing.

Potong stim =.=

Bye.